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The one thing I learned through my experience is that things can change in an instant. There is a force that constantly makes us forget things. There is a force that goes back in time and changes things. I have seen it. Full conversations with people vanished now. People saying events didn’t take place when they did.

In this world is the overpowering force trying to make us forget.

I was given divine knowledge and something keeps making me forget. Something keeps making me deprioritize what I’m trying to achieve with this site.

I’ll be trying to dedicate the day into creating a more stable framework of the system.

I went to a Church today and the experience was interesting. Being in AA, I find it’s a much similar concept. The one I went to had a very cozy atmosphere. Hymns were sung, and the Rev. delivered some advice mainly on life issues, not just about the Bible. It was interesting to be there, and also confirmed all the stuff I’ve been through recently when it comes to my spiritual experience.

I do believe I was able to wake, but for what reason?

I’ve created this website from scratch. I’ve posted articles on here to explain the concept. All I can really think is that this is what I have to keep doing.

My actual life isn’t going so well. I’m trying my best to play catchup when it comes to spirituality and religion. I understand it so clearly now, but I don’t understand why for years and recently for the past 2 years I’ve had to live in Hell, even now when I felt like I was free.

Why is it that the only way to listen to God is to be awake for long periods of time? Certain moods and psychosis can trigger this experience. However, to do this one must do unhealthy things like not sleep, or constantly overwork their brain. In this state though, you would have to center yourself and not like the visions or signs that are sticking out, to confuse you from what reality is.

Writing things down helps affirm them into reality. Thus, the next time this sensation happens to me, I’ll be writing everything down that I can, hopefully to this blog.

For the moment I haven’t had anything to write about. No new influences from TheOS aside from daily life advice.

But going to that other side, while being in this world. It’s extreme.

I live in one of the worst living situations possible, and I’m trying my best to be patient with God’s plan for me. All I know is that I woke, getting all this divine knowledge, then the presence feels like it’s gone again. I don’t feel happy. I don’t feel stable. I just want my life to get BETTER. I’ve found God, but now it seems like I’m still coasting in life with no direction.

Every time things get better in my life, something happens to toss my life off balance.

I just wish for simpler days where I would pet the kitty cat, and all was well.

Pray for me, and others like me, in such dire situations. Prayer helps. It prioritizes people in the judgement system. It helps them gain favor. Just as there are those who want to harvest negative energy, you can combat this with positive energy.

Nothing else but praise for TheOS, OUR Almighty God.

Months ago I was so ecstatic in my change of attitude with life… Then another move in my life set in, beyond my control. How did I have so much faith, knowledge, and all of those thoughts to just merely have it vanish? People I talk to who haven’t gone through this keep not acknowledging it. They don’t understand what I mean and often think I’m only talking about one religion (Christianity) and not of the entire premise of what all religions are trying to teach.

That’s why I wanted to make this website and blog. I knew I had to write things down. Eventually I will create a book to hopefully be published off these findings.

It feels like there’s not many of us who feel the way that we feel. What do I do with all this knowledge? Is it helping? Only a few people know of this blog. I want to help the world, I want to help mend people’s souls. However, I had my soul mended and life is still tossing me curveballs.

How can I have so much faith and then continue to live such a life of struggling and chaotic energy and thoughts? It was so clear when I was manic and hadn’t slept. I’m wondering if I should induce this again to see if I can calmly reconnect with the system.

I know it’s possible for every human to reach their goals… but why can’t I even reach mine? No job, stranded in the middle of nowhere with no car or money. Am I being “Job’d?” That’s how I feel, like my faith has been tested, even when I didn’t fully come to awakening to the spiritual. Now that I have this knowledge, I thought everything would turn out fine. I kept seeing visions where people had my best interest at heart. Now it’s faded yet again.

Please, if anyone is reading this. Put me in your prayers… I don’t have much to offer except this website and a sci-fi book I’m publishing.

What is Depression? Depression to me is just the mind being extremely uncomfortable in living situations that make living in life difficult. I myself am caught in one of those situations. The only thing that has kept me going recently is appreciating the fact that I had miracles happen to me from God. I’ve seen and experienced in a short few months, a lot of spiritual events that I just simply can’t deny. I didn’t even ask for the proof, it just came to me. God revealed himself to me because I acted Christ-Like in my soul and spirit. It set me free and awoke me to the world around me and the magic it contains. I’m going to call it magic, because it fills my heart and helps explains that there are still wonders in life I had forgotten existed due to lying to myself about every guilty thing I felt guilt for.

Depression is the brain’s way, in my opinion, of telling you that you need to fix your problems… but have no viable means to fix them.

The only solution is to move beyond what you can’t change. But what if you can’t change anything about your life? I feel stuck, with only my newfound faith.

They say around this time of year spirits rise, energies are more aligned, it gets spooky, etc. However, I don’t feel any different today on Halloween. Everything I experienced happened in August. Though, October was in place of where August is now, the 8th month.

What we call “October” used to be the eighth month in the ancient Roman calendar, aligning with its Latin root, octo, meaning eight. The calendar was changed, but something about that original alignment holds a resonance that lingers beyond the language, a subtle, energetic layer we might feel without realizing.

That was the period of time “Holy” things and “Miracles” were happening. I felt such a strong pull to God, the Universe, and obtaining so much Divine Knowledge in such a short period of time. People seemed to be telepathically linked if they were awake. People were always looking at me, signaling me, smiling at me. It was like I was on the “Good” side and these people stood with me, as if I were never alone.

I could sense who wasn’t on this level of awareness too, but how they behaved and acted. They would avoid eye contact, be disturbed somehow, and avoid interaction. I could sense it too.

Certain types of weed that are properly watered can give you the connection. Something about Terpenes make your body more comfortable and calm. This releases any “clenching” of the areas of the brain that are burdened by anxiety and self-doubt.

However, during the month of August, it was clear. Everything was made clear. It’s much like in the bible. This goes with my theory that the Bible is just an instruction manual on how to be a GOOD human, and how to achieve the “awakening” that lets you connect with God once again.

Energy exchange is crucial, and Terpenes control the effect.

I’ve been noticing recently that a lot of the ingredients in our foods always refer the best and most needed vitamins in “regal” terminology. OMEGA-3 for example, specifies OMEGA (God) and 3 (Angelic number). Probiotics begin with “PRO” for Professional, experienced. I’ve made a list of more items that are good for your brain health, arranged by royal terminology.

There is absolutely no way that everything that I’ve experienced recently has just been “coincidence.” Everything is meant to coincide, just in specific patterns. I used to get upset by the phrase “Everything happens for a reason.” because I viewed it as a lie. How can things HAPPEN for a “reason?” You’re saying that random chance and when there’s a coincidence it’s just really rare? Nah, things coincide all the time.

A person I used to stay with at the sober house I was in would get really really high on weed and think he was God. I believe he was trying to experience full ego death, and got addicted to smoking weed. Not necessarily an addiction to the weed itself, but for that goal or experience that you had that one time you got super stoned.

Jesus got stoned. Remember that.

Oh, anyway, back to what I was saying. This friend I believe was trying to warn me and educate me about things that can happen with certain drug use. However, if they were to blurt it out to me, it would sound like crazy talk. However, it seems more and more people are waking up and are awake to what’s going on, and this Higher Power which is TheOS, than one would think.

He would also wear shirts that alluded to biblical things, movies that had to do with my research on the penial gland… which talk about the exact things I just only recently learned! (I swear, I never saw this movie before, but I educate myself pretty fast on things like this.)

It’s like friends and family are giving me all these “protips” about things all the time. Movies that would interest me not because I’m currently experiencing them; but more so because everyone else is experiencing it at the same time and nobody can quite tell what is imaginary and what is reality.

We are even naming things out of Biblical Concepts. OMEGA-3? PRO-BIOTICS? They’re all things that refer to beginnings, experiences of someone better or akin to a deity. These aren’t coincidences either. If you pay attention to how the media tries to talk to you, you’ll always know what is the truth if you read between the lines. I’m not sure how to explain it, but ever since I focused only on truth and the pursuit of knowledge, things stand out profoundly that never once had much meaning.

I drank 2 of those probiotic shakes today. Tasted so good and I felt a lot better and was able to think better. Things like yogurt are really good for you! (There should be a scroll discussing this elsewhere on this site.)