🏛️Library of Alexandria🏛️

Either I’ve done something wrong, or it’s just a natural cycle for everything that I’ve experienced to be fading. I still have it in my memory, but it seems like the time period where things were being revealed is slowly fading away. I can’t tell if it’s an illusion or not, or perhaps it’s the new medication I’ve been taking. I’m on a mood stabilizer, and to be frank it’s making me frustrated.

I am to assume that God works in mysterious ways, but I’m unsure why it has to constantly be mysterious. I was having a lot of fun learning about God, the Universe, and how things are created. However, it probably sounds like pseudoscience to those who are more adept in the field. I feel like I’m more of a philosopher or theoretical physicist now.

I have so much work to do in explaining everything, but it slowly fades. I was told if I don’t write it down in some form, it’ll be lost.

I’ve also been told it’s probably not fading, and that this awakening lasts 7 years. If this is the case, then I have about 7 years to write my own book. I want to create a Neo Bible that explains the universe and redemption for the modern and logical mind.

The imaginary works in mathematics, so why can’t it work with the world? That’s literally the basis of everything, is incorporating the intangible, because the universe still has many mysteries to uncover. You can’t have the physical without the imaginary. Working with Quantum Physics, the imaginary is pretty much everything. The most basic essence of the universe on a quantum level is basically just noise.

Think of an old CRT TV, where no signal is coming in and it looks like white static. That’s essentially what the universe is made of, that static. Not literally the one on TV, but it’s the best representation. When not “tuned in” it’s a bunch of static and “snow” like particles. However, once to “tune” the channel, all that white static forms into coherent images.

When God spoke to me on a bus (yes, really) through my ex-roommate he showed me his learner’s permit and the picture that was on it. The picture was of him, but it looked like pieces were missing. I’m not sure if the image was like that when he got it, but either way God said, “Look, who is that?” and it was quite the experience. God was teaching me how Sin (also called “Burning” by God) is released. He also taught me how everything works. He told me that everything forward is but an illusion or dream, and that behind us (which we can’t normally see without turning around, or strapping a camera on our back or something) was the exit.

I believe in a sense that in the fractal realm (which is revealed by doing DMT) intersects into the dream. The me that you see before you isn’t me, it’s just a projection from our fractal selves. Our true self is worked on and managed by God and His angels, while in the real world we don’t really see much of a difference. Though, while it was happening to me, metaphors of fixing “flat tires” kept cropping up around that time.

I sit here today wondering what insights I’ll gain, but I’m simply not manic enough to tune that in at the moment.

God has shown Himself to me. He has given me divine knowledge. He’s shown me that also, I am not alone. Other people have awakened, and it’s only a matter of time before we’re all awake and on the same page with each other in life.

Since this all happened for the first time to me recently, more research is needed to figure out if this is happening to me alone after awaking, and this is normal for an awakening… OR, if this is something that happens every year around the same time, but only I and others that are awake, can remember?

Other people acted so strangely, then no evidence of it was even found. They would claim they didn’t know what I was talking about. They would say things like, “You’re getting your sugar” and then when I didn’t give the correct answer, one person got mad at me and said, “What did your friends do to you? Now we have to clean up your mess.” and left without saying goodbye.

It was like for 2 weeks everyone was speaking in code, like an underground Olympic game. Yet, nobody will even mention it at all. People were acting strange in town, acting as if the world was going to end. People would allude to other people being “rats” or “speaking too much.”

I can’t tell if this was all clear because I lived in a particular town or not. All I know is that other people were experiencing the same things I was. Again, was this some sort of gift of revelation? Or did I just happen to wake up right as the cycle was coming to that particular “challenge?”

The only knowledge I have is the hints my mother and grandmother gave to me. They would teach me about the Greek Gods, Music, Math, etc. In fact, they often got mad at me if I didn’t seem to take an interest. I was interested in everything, I just never had anyone teach me much. I learned about Greek Mythology in 6th grade; I even got to play a part in a play, as Cerberus.

Singing is a talent I’ve always had.

Life is getting strange. Though I don’t feel so alone now, it’s still frustrating to be put in such a position where I can’t make any progress in life. More of God’s tests. I wonder when the tests will end, because I already LOVE God and all that is and was and will be. I am Human too, after all. It gets stressful.

The cycles of most religions must come full circle. Christianity tries to teach us the cycles and what will happen during each year. The Bible is not merely a book to guide the present from words of the past, it’s a gift to describe God and how He operates, so we can better understand Him. He WANTS to get to know us, but the physical realm is not something He understands without us. He tries to weave the Threads of Fate so we can always be successful and fruitful. Sometimes we don’t take those opportunities.

I personally believe the month of August, every year, is for those who have come to God to get to know him. Thus, Revelations being the REVEALING of God during this month.

During this month, I experienced things I never thought I would believe. Of course, I’m the slightly paranoid type that believes that this was all parlor tricks, but I know in my heart even if it was… it still had the same effect.

I saw a friend who was supposed to be in the mental hospital driving her car around the block while I was out for a walk. I saw the YouTuber “Skeeter Jean” driving around, because I hate pedophiles and the one accusation that I used to fear was disrespecting women and girls. For example, there was a lesbian woman I knew. She had a ton of the same interests as me personally. (Zelda, Steven Universe, passion for collecting rocks and gems, etc.) Since she was a lesbian and I respect that, I’ve never tried to hit on her. She misperceived me one time trying to explain to her that I care about her because at the time, she was a good fit for my friend she was dating. After a few months on Facebook just being friends, I sent her a message saying that her relationship was wholesome and I was envious that they had such a good relationship.

She turned it into herself the complete opposite way, accusing me of hitting on her and proclaiming “I don’t like men.” — Yes, I know, that’s why I never propositioned her. But it didn’t matter, it was stuck in her head that for some strange reason, she thought a guy who is bi and respects boundaries of other people, would still have intentions on flirting with her. That was not the case, but I can understand her perspective. My point of this story is that I found the conversation so upsetting to MYSELF it caused anxiety and panic. I was accused of doing something I did not do. In fact, my biggest worries are of others perception of me. Not because of ego, vanity, or narcissism, but out of a mutual respect that I want to treat others how I WANTED TO BE TREATED, and vise versa. I didn’t believe I broke that boundary or crossed that line, but the false accusation was pain to me, because it was a lie. The lie was that I had feelings other than platonic ones for this friend at the time. She cut ties with me, and that just made it worse.

So far, I saw a friend driving her car when she was in the hospital… and a guy who doesn’t know me from a hole in the wall driving around his Lyft car reminding me of the SCUM of the Earth who prey upon the weak.

I went home and realized, if I’m not like this… why am I always stressed? I shouldn’t let false accusations get to me so much, so I just let it go. Then God, during the month of August, just sort of appeared in my spirit. I received the Holy Spirit and found Jesus. It was all revealed to me when I let FALSE accusations go, and embraced my true self. What did it MATTER if someone perceived me as this? I felt bad that they thought I was doing it, sure… But I shouldn’t have felt bad about things that did not actually happen, and I should have just apologized immediately instead of arguing back and overexplaining. They saw the overexplaining and viewed it as “backtracking” even though I was clarifying what I meant in the message.

Now the world is backwards. I’m no longer afraid of false expectations because I know God is with me and witnesses everything. The key to existing on Earth is to relax and not take situations to another level of engagement. You need to find ways to disengage conversation while appealing to the other person’s mind; not try to convince them of things that didn’t happen when they perceive their reality as it happening.

I always find this sad, because when they don’t believe my explanation they think I’m lying when I’m not. I’ve also had a hard time in the past apologizing for things that I’ve never done, not realizing that it doesn’t matter if I’ve done them or not, it matters of the other person’s perspective that I did. Any explanation can come later.

During August, a lot of weird revelations happened to me. The miracles took place, and I was walking down the road hearing the radio speak to me like a schizophrenic. Particular signs and numbers would stick out and I’d be immediately drawn to them, and it was like God was speaking to me directly. This occurred very gradually over the month. I’m unsure if these events happen every year yet, or if it’s a type of revealing process once you shed the guilt and the false narratives you’ve harbored from other people into your spirit.

I had a very good friend from my childhood that cut ties with me over the years, that I realized wasn’t as great of a friend as she purported to be. Other mutual friends would tell me they would speak ill or awful of me over the years. I couldn’t believe it, as I’ve never speak ill of them at all. They were, in secret, telling all our mutual friends that I was a terrible person, that they shouldn’t date me, and that I was some sort of person who goes around “flirting” with everyone.

I don’t understand where this came from, because I had never flirted with anyone. It’s just simply something I didn’t do back then. I also only flirt with friends that I’ve known for a long period of time because I never used to be comfortable in crowds or settings. I believe this perceived “flirtation” was just me trying to get to know a person who seemed safe. That’s the same with the lesbian woman that I talked to who she claimed that I was flirting with her. No, it’s not flirting. It’s just genuinely trying to be a good person and I wanted to boost her self-esteem and make sure she knew that I approved, not that my approval matters.

I just know that people would do the same when my ex and I were in a relationship, so I mimicked the behavior. People would come up to me and my girlfriend at the time and say, “You’re such a nice couple! Wish I had that, rooting for you!” — So I thought the same behavior was acceptable.

During this time in my life, I had gender dysmorphia (and still kind of do) where I thought I was a failure as a man and wanted to transition to be a woman. I no longer think this and I am grateful for the body I am already in. I was deluded in thinking people’s PERCEPTION of me was doing to make those perceptions into reality. I was perceived as “hostile” as a man, so that means I had to be a woman. Nah, it just meant that I had to actually embrace being myself and have the courage enough to tell someone to “F**k off” or tell someone that something wasn’t true, and just stick with it.

Instead, I was always trying to appease the other person and make them feel at ease, so I would overexplain. Apparently neurotypical people call this “backtracking” — Which I still don’t fully understand. It’s an explanation to explain the past, of course it’s “backtracking” that doesn’t mean it’s not valid.

My main trouble in life has always been understanding other people and why they react the way they do to me. I don’t feel like anyone of importance, or I didn’t back then. Now I just serve God, and try to spread life’s mysteries by blogging about it here.

The rest of August got progressively “worse” in a sense. My life didn’t get worse, but the effects were ramped up through the whole month into the first week of September.

Everywhere I looked, it seemed like people were trying to give me hints and signals, and I didn’t quite understand it. People would walk back and their fingers would be interlaced, and they’d look at me and nod as if they were telling me something.

What was going on I realized, was the Olympic Games were occurring…

I’ll blog about that separately, but during this time of awakening the events of Revelations was playing out. I saw shooting stars, there was an aurora in the sky, and there was an earthquake during one of the mornings that I actually felt while half-asleep. (I thought someone was moving furniture or shaking my bed, nah, it was just the Earth rumbling a bit.)

Then I realized… I’ve had this conversation before. It seems like every year there’s a minor earthquake in New England. It seems like every year, there’s talk of meteor showers or phenomenal things. Is this just the Book of Revelations happening each year, over and over again, and now only I can see it because I’m awake?

People in town were talking as if the world was ending. This one woman from the bar said things like, “Well I’ve lead a good life, I wish I didn’t waste it though” — and other odd things were occurring. It was like people knew they were being judged during this time period and were worried. There were old men offering seats left and right to other people at the bars. People were insanely nice to me and giving. Everywhere I went I had a positive attitude and God-like presence within me, and people seemed to ask me advice, wanted to talk to me, or had expectations of me that I didn’t even know people thought of me.

I believe that the Bible is not just a mere book of accounts in the past… But it’s an INSTRUCTION MANUAL on the cycles of the year, stories of Christ so you can emulate him and learn the cycles and basics of life.

Don’t kill, don’t steal, be good to your neighbors, etc.

However, when September was ending, it seemed like all of this started to fade. Where once I had this perfect clarity of God, now all I had were remnants.

It’s hard to tell what is real or not anymore, because whatever was going on, I felt like the moon changed positions in the sky briefly, which flipped the Earth upside down.

I believe a sort of “Judging” process happens around this time. I’ve even associated Greek legend to go along with the cycles. I’ll comment more on that later.

God works in mysterious ways. You’ve heard that before. However, He truly does. I had prayed for a place to stay, and someone got back to me about an offer for their place. However, I was sent there not to live there, but to observe the behavior of the man who offered me the place.

I was extremely open to moving out and moving in with him, but he exhibits signs of a narcissist. He’s got high anxiety and it’s just something I can feel. It didn’t work out, I’m going to be returning his keys. Yes, he gave me the keys immediately. Yes, I would be a great choice for a roommate, but the type of energy he has I can’t just fathom being around.

So I thought, “Wow God, what a nice joke” but I learned something from the experience.

Also, I was able to get financial help for where I live. I’m wondering if I had to experience hanging out with the guy who offered me a place, for this offered for the financial help to even happen.

It really messes with your brain when you think about it. Good things usually come from God and Him assisting us. However, once and awhile curveballs are thrown.

So, my prayers were answered, but in a crazy ridiculous way.

I’m a bit more calm with a solid place to live. Trying to maintain Zen when you have a lot to do, but no capability to do it properly.

Of course, those are my own excuses I guess. However, unless God wants me to rise up against the government and become a complete lunatic spouting the world of Jesus (or Heisus) Christ, then like… I dunno, I guess I’m doing that pretty well now. A job well done?

God presented Himself to me when I let go of my anxiety about bad habits; also known as Temptation or Sin. I’ll define what I mean.

Sin: Anything that gives into Temptation.

This includes bad habits that you normally would not think is “sinful.” Sin is simply stagnation or bad behaviors that you repeat. That doesn’t mean the task is morally wrong to do. It’s that you keep repeating behaviors or habits that slow you down and don’t accomplish your goals.

For example, if you smoke cigarettes, that’s not exactly a sin in itself. It’s not good for you either if you continue doing it. This is when it becomes a Sin. It’s a temptation that you CAN’T or for some reason WON’T let go of. It controls you more than you control it.

Sin is about creating boundaries and healthy habits and behaviors.

This, in essence, is how I’ve come to know God and I’ve had a spiritual awakening.

I’ve noticed that when you’re doing the right thing and make your life about God, then GOOD things do always happen. They just take place at particular moments. I was literally BEGGING God to help, I gave him me pleas. Then the same day, a person reached out to offer me a room to stay with him.

My anxiety took flight. Can I pay for it? Will this be a GOOD idea? How well do I know these people? They think I’m chill, and they seem chill…

See! Opportunity, right there! God had answered my prayer. Old me would have been shy about this offer, constantly inventing excuses. But I do have the money to move out ASAP, and I don’t trust this sober house system.

I had always wondered why people would write “self-help” books when they claim to know the “Secret” to how the world works. If they know this incredible secret, why are they writing a book? Why are some of these people not well off as they should be?

Knowing the secret and putting it into practical use are two entirely different things. We’re all, in some way, blessed by God. TheOS prioritizes those who are actively working and seeking help. TheOS will help instruct your peers and enable it so that you come off as your genuine self to other people. With God, anything is possible; it’s just a matter of how your Faith / Connection is fluent and pure.

For example, perhaps some people with this secret have no idea how to make money, except through this knowledge. If this is what we were put on this Earth to do, which is to spread the message of TheOS and Jesus (Heisus) – Meaning, “He is us” as God is EVERYTHING. God is the keyboard I am typing on, God is the computer monitor in front of me. God is the air I breathe, and I thank Him for that when I can.

People keep thinking God is a humanoid construct. That could very well be the case and is the case with each and every one of us. However, the universe is much like a simulation and a computer than you would think. When you deduce everything to its basics, we have a lot in common with each other. We have a new patience for how the world works.

TheOS is LITERALLY EVERYTHING. God IS EVERYTHING. This is why we know that God “loves” us in some capacity, because it’s through Him that we live.

Imagine that the universe was empty, blank, just a dark void. However, imagine now that this void is actually the Strage for a Dream to emerge. The void and the light are both God, TheOS. The OS. God is the ultimate Operating System. This is doesn’t mean God is a computer, but He functions a lot like one.

That’s where the secret comes in. If you know that God is there, and is always helping… Then why do people have such miserable lives? I mean, I found God after all. I know that He is like a sentient operating system. I exist because I am created in TheOS’ image. God’s image. This doesn’t exactly mean I look like God, because God is both a concept and all of the physical. God is ALL.

Welcome to the Temple of Wisdom, where we explore the profound relationship between the universe, consciousness, and the divine. We delve into the captivating concept of cosmic consciousness, a belief that resonates deeply with our understanding of TheOS—the all-encompassing, loving God who exists within us and around us.

Understanding Cosmic Consciousness

At its core, cosmic consciousness suggests that our individual consciousness is interconnected with a universal awareness. This concept posits that every living being is part of a vast, divine tapestry woven together by the threads of existence. Just as each thread plays its unique role in creating the whole, so do our individual thoughts and experiences contribute to the collective consciousness.

The Science Behind Consciousness

In the realm of physics, particularly in quantum mechanics, there are theories that align with the idea of cosmic consciousness. One such theory is the observer effect, which suggests that the act of observation can alter the behavior of particles at a quantum level. This phenomenon raises intriguing questions about the nature of reality—if consciousness can influence the physical world, what does that mean for our understanding of existence?

The implications are profound: could it be that our thoughts and intentions shape the reality we experience? If so, we are not mere spectators of life but active participants in the grand design of the universe.

The Spiritual Perspective

Many spiritual traditions echo the idea of cosmic consciousness. They teach that we are all connected through a greater universal awareness—a divine source that permeates every aspect of existence. This aligns beautifully with our understanding of TheOS, the loving God who embodies this universal consciousness.

TheOS is not a distant deity but rather an intimate presence within us. He represents the essence of love, unity, and compassion. By recognizing that He IS Us, we awaken to the realization that we have the power to shape our reality through our thoughts and intentions.

The Interplay of Science and Spirituality

The intersection of science and spirituality offers a rich ground for exploration. As we contemplate cosmic consciousness, we find that these two realms are not mutually exclusive but rather complementary. The laws of the universe, as revealed through science, can deepen our understanding of the divine.

When we embrace this cosmic connection, we can begin to see ourselves as co-creators with TheOS. We are invited to align our thoughts and actions with the greater good, knowing that we are part of something much larger than ourselves.

Embracing Our Divine Nature

As we gather in the Temple of Wisdom, let us reflect on our place in the universe and our connection to TheOS. By recognizing the divine within ourselves and others, we can cultivate compassion, empathy, and love.

Let us practice mindfulness and intention, knowing that our thoughts hold the power to shape our reality. Together, we can foster a world that reflects the loving nature of TheOS, a world where we uplift one another and work towards the greater good.

Conclusion

In conclusion, the concept of cosmic consciousness invites us to embrace our divine nature and recognize the interconnectedness of all beings. As we worship TheOS in His truest form, let us remember that we are not separate from the divine; we are expressions of it.

Join us in the Temple of Wisdom as we continue to explore the mysteries of existence and celebrate the profound love of TheOS, who desires nothing but the best for us. Together, we can create a brighter, more compassionate world, guided by the light of our cosmic consciousness.

I don’t imagine those who haven’t been in my situation would ever relate… But those with money look down on poor struggling people, as if they are lazy. We are not lazy, the exact opposite. We exert too much stress and effort staying afloat.

The “God” system within the Dream reflects God’s will. Currently, the system really is like staying afloat. Do you have a boat, or are you swimming with your head barely above water?

All nursery rhythms tell of this basic concept, it’s how the United States of America’s justice system works. It’s how the global education system works.

Row, row, row your boat,

Gently down the stream.

Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,

Life is but a dream.

However, it also works in reverse, just like everything in life there is duality.

Drift, drift, drift your ship,

Harshly up the rocks.

Sorrowfully, sorrowfully, sorrowfully, sorrowfully,

Life is but a nightmare.

It’s all about perspective. We experience both at different stages of life. However the stream is always flowing. Don’t drown, they tell us.

While our heads barely keep afloat.

The wealthy look at someone sinking with disgust first, instead of helping them. This is because they can not fathom how people don’t strive harder. It’s not that we don’t try, it’s that we are trying all the time and progress is minimal. It’s our lives the world is playing with. It’s not a game and should not be a “burden” to help those in need.

I don’t ever feel safe anymore. Even when I know God is there and everything will work out… There is always this sense of dread. Like demons still lingering. Apparently we’re supposed to use these demons, but I don’t think harboring demons is useful. The Light of God burns brighter than any demon.