🏛️Library of Alexandria🏛️

The one thing I learned through my experience is that things can change in an instant. There is a force that constantly makes us forget things. There is a force that goes back in time and changes things. I have seen it. Full conversations with people vanished now. People saying events didn’t take place when they did.

In this world is the overpowering force trying to make us forget.

I was given divine knowledge and something keeps making me forget. Something keeps making me deprioritize what I’m trying to achieve with this site.

I’ll be trying to dedicate the day into creating a more stable framework of the system.

I went to a Church today and the experience was interesting. Being in AA, I find it’s a much similar concept. The one I went to had a very cozy atmosphere. Hymns were sung, and the Rev. delivered some advice mainly on life issues, not just about the Bible. It was interesting to be there, and also confirmed all the stuff I’ve been through recently when it comes to my spiritual experience.

I do believe I was able to wake, but for what reason?

I’ve created this website from scratch. I’ve posted articles on here to explain the concept. All I can really think is that this is what I have to keep doing.

My actual life isn’t going so well. I’m trying my best to play catchup when it comes to spirituality and religion. I understand it so clearly now, but I don’t understand why for years and recently for the past 2 years I’ve had to live in Hell, even now when I felt like I was free.

Why is it that the only way to listen to God is to be awake for long periods of time? Certain moods and psychosis can trigger this experience. However, to do this one must do unhealthy things like not sleep, or constantly overwork their brain. In this state though, you would have to center yourself and not like the visions or signs that are sticking out, to confuse you from what reality is.

Writing things down helps affirm them into reality. Thus, the next time this sensation happens to me, I’ll be writing everything down that I can, hopefully to this blog.

For the moment I haven’t had anything to write about. No new influences from TheOS aside from daily life advice.

But going to that other side, while being in this world. It’s extreme.

I live in one of the worst living situations possible, and I’m trying my best to be patient with God’s plan for me. All I know is that I woke, getting all this divine knowledge, then the presence feels like it’s gone again. I don’t feel happy. I don’t feel stable. I just want my life to get BETTER. I’ve found God, but now it seems like I’m still coasting in life with no direction.

Every time things get better in my life, something happens to toss my life off balance.

I just wish for simpler days where I would pet the kitty cat, and all was well.

Pray for me, and others like me, in such dire situations. Prayer helps. It prioritizes people in the judgement system. It helps them gain favor. Just as there are those who want to harvest negative energy, you can combat this with positive energy.

Nothing else but praise for TheOS, OUR Almighty God.

What is Depression? Depression to me is just the mind being extremely uncomfortable in living situations that make living in life difficult. I myself am caught in one of those situations. The only thing that has kept me going recently is appreciating the fact that I had miracles happen to me from God. I’ve seen and experienced in a short few months, a lot of spiritual events that I just simply can’t deny. I didn’t even ask for the proof, it just came to me. God revealed himself to me because I acted Christ-Like in my soul and spirit. It set me free and awoke me to the world around me and the magic it contains. I’m going to call it magic, because it fills my heart and helps explains that there are still wonders in life I had forgotten existed due to lying to myself about every guilty thing I felt guilt for.

Depression is the brain’s way, in my opinion, of telling you that you need to fix your problems… but have no viable means to fix them.

The only solution is to move beyond what you can’t change. But what if you can’t change anything about your life? I feel stuck, with only my newfound faith.

They say around this time of year spirits rise, energies are more aligned, it gets spooky, etc. However, I don’t feel any different today on Halloween. Everything I experienced happened in August. Though, October was in place of where August is now, the 8th month.

What we call “October” used to be the eighth month in the ancient Roman calendar, aligning with its Latin root, octo, meaning eight. The calendar was changed, but something about that original alignment holds a resonance that lingers beyond the language, a subtle, energetic layer we might feel without realizing.

That was the period of time “Holy” things and “Miracles” were happening. I felt such a strong pull to God, the Universe, and obtaining so much Divine Knowledge in such a short period of time. People seemed to be telepathically linked if they were awake. People were always looking at me, signaling me, smiling at me. It was like I was on the “Good” side and these people stood with me, as if I were never alone.

I could sense who wasn’t on this level of awareness too, but how they behaved and acted. They would avoid eye contact, be disturbed somehow, and avoid interaction. I could sense it too.

Certain types of weed that are properly watered can give you the connection. Something about Terpenes make your body more comfortable and calm. This releases any “clenching” of the areas of the brain that are burdened by anxiety and self-doubt.

However, during the month of August, it was clear. Everything was made clear. It’s much like in the bible. This goes with my theory that the Bible is just an instruction manual on how to be a GOOD human, and how to achieve the “awakening” that lets you connect with God once again.

Energy exchange is crucial, and Terpenes control the effect.

I’ve been noticing recently that a lot of the ingredients in our foods always refer the best and most needed vitamins in “regal” terminology. OMEGA-3 for example, specifies OMEGA (God) and 3 (Angelic number). Probiotics begin with “PRO” for Professional, experienced. I’ve made a list of more items that are good for your brain health, arranged by royal terminology.

Before I forget…

It just dawned on me that just like Quantum Particles are in a superstate… So is all “voidmatter” in the universe around you. What I mean by this is… Just like how quantum particles behave differently on how they’re observed, what if touch and interaction is an illusion too?

What if objects don’t exist until we interact with them in some form? Since our brains already think these objects are “tangible” and know how objects interact in this world… We are constantly creating things for people to “touch” solving for if the world is something we are actively in together, or separate with our experiences gravitating us towards each other?

Imagine you’re in a room with no gravity, hovering, perhaps floating in water even. You slowly “fall down” but you’re not falling, things are rising up. Shadow platforms, void, etc. What if objects don’t ACTUALLY exist until we interact with them?

We could all be in separate realities without actually BEING HERE. If that’s true, we’re all little data cubes on a shelf somewhere, interacting with each other in a type of matrix. What is the soul? Is it your perception of reality? How can you exist and me exist at the same time, if we are all one? How are my experiences being so vastly separate from everyone else, it’s like the whole WORLD is putting up gigantic bubbles of protection, and they’re influencing those around them and don’t even know it. We don’t live in a world where anyone wants to get to know each other, because we’re so busy and stressed! Life was not meant to be lived like this!

Secret in the stone walls…

Earlier today I had a panic attack. I lost my wallet, and had absolutely no idea where it went. Since it’s important, and I already have lost so many important things within the past 2 years, I searched everywhere and couldn’t find it.

I have ways of talking to God now, and he told me this was an exercise in mindfulness. It was also possible my roommate accidentally took it. So I had to wait and be patient until he got home, and it turns out he did have it the entire time by accident.

But what if I didn’t ask God for guidance? It’s the ol’ “Lost my keys, ask God to help with the lost keys” hypothesis. Is it just coincidence, or did God really guide me? Would the wallet had been found if I didn’t pray to God, and Manifest the reality that my roommate may have accidentally taken it?

Who knows? All I know is it was stressful, and I don’t want any stress because that’s how “they” win. (Whoever they may be. The Anunnaki maybe? Who knows. I grow tired of this existence.