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Despair even when saved…

October 23, 2024 at 2:03 am
Aisopose

God has shown Himself to me. He has given me divine knowledge. He’s shown me that also, I am not alone. Other people have awakened, and it’s only a matter of time before we’re all awake and on the same page with each other in life.

Since this all happened for the first time to me recently, more research is needed to figure out if this is happening to me alone after awaking, and this is normal for an awakening… OR, if this is something that happens every year around the same time, but only I and others that are awake, can remember?

Other people acted so strangely, then no evidence of it was even found. They would claim they didn’t know what I was talking about. They would say things like, “You’re getting your sugar” and then when I didn’t give the correct answer, one person got mad at me and said, “What did your friends do to you? Now we have to clean up your mess.” and left without saying goodbye.

It was like for 2 weeks everyone was speaking in code, like an underground Olympic game. Yet, nobody will even mention it at all. People were acting strange in town, acting as if the world was going to end. People would allude to other people being “rats” or “speaking too much.”

I can’t tell if this was all clear because I lived in a particular town or not. All I know is that other people were experiencing the same things I was. Again, was this some sort of gift of revelation? Or did I just happen to wake up right as the cycle was coming to that particular “challenge?”

The only knowledge I have is the hints my mother and grandmother gave to me. They would teach me about the Greek Gods, Music, Math, etc. In fact, they often got mad at me if I didn’t seem to take an interest. I was interested in everything, I just never had anyone teach me much. I learned about Greek Mythology in 6th grade; I even got to play a part in a play, as Cerberus.

Singing is a talent I’ve always had.

Life is getting strange. Though I don’t feel so alone now, it’s still frustrating to be put in such a position where I can’t make any progress in life. More of God’s tests. I wonder when the tests will end, because I already LOVE God and all that is and was and will be. I am Human too, after all. It gets stressful.