🏛️Library of Alexandria🏛️

Being poor is the worst thing possible in today’s age. It expects you to be already prepared for a job or ready and able to transport yourself around when you already have nothing. Your options for places to go is limited, even more so when places are far or hard to get to, especially in the stormy and cold weather.

I think the reason why I wish to understand God so much is so I can alter my own Fate. I want to be able to do the things I want to do, and live the way I want to live, therefore helping me to bear fruit to creative ideas and lucrative opportunities.

I’m told I’m to treat myself like Royalty, and also treat others. You know, the Golden Rule. However, I often observe people not following this rule on a daily basis, and honestly it disgusts me.

It’s the most basic of wishes, treat your neighbors like you treat yourself.

If your neighbor doesn’t have something and needs help, you should help them, because if you are blessed with lucrative amounts of money, every task becomes easier for you.

As someone poor, I don’t even know where I’ll be sleeping the next day. Where I’ll put my clothes. How about my possessions? They just sit there, destroyed and shambled. The only remanence of my Earthly family’s legacy.

All I have is my computer, a laptop for writing, a few stuffed animals, and a bunch of old pictures and torn to bits newspapers from ages past.

Is this my legacy? I am also 40, and I have just been couch surfing and struggling for years.

My last partner I tried to create a home with, a family. However, we were both struggling at the same time and didn’t know or acknowledge each other’s feelings. I was head over heals in love with her, and I thought that was reciprocated, but it wasn’t.

I kept getting these things in my Facebook ads talking about “Gaslighting” and “Empath and Narcissist” so I was wondering if my ex was researching these things, or was these things and this was a sign.

I am empathic and know how to control it slightly better now. But I’m in a world of elites who want to keep me down and have been keeping me down for most of my life since my mother passed.

It’s told that I’ve had angels helping me. Well, help me not feel like I’m about to be on the streets every day, that would be nice.